Lifelore

The hymn “It Is Well With My Soul” was originally written by Horatio G. Spafford, with music composed by Philip Bliss in 1873. I have grown up singing this song in church. Even though I have sung it hundreds of times, the words have never quite hit me like they have in the past 5 months.
In September of 2025 (5 months ago), my Mom had a debilitating brain aneurism and passed away in late October, 6 weeks after this terrible tragedy occurred.
One of my favorite songs over the past few years has been “Even If” by Mercy Me. The lyrics are based around the fact that God can move mountains and change any circumstance that He wills, but if He chooses not to, my hope remains in Him and it is well with my soul. I listened to this song over the 6 weeks that my Mom was in a coma. After she left her earthly home to be with Jesus, I had a realization that startled me! Losing my Mom and the emptiness that I felt was not well with my soul! I was sad, mad, confused…….. I remember asking my husband if there was something wrong with me since I did not have the faith or peace that I felt I should have. I know that my Mom is with Jesus, without any pain or concerns of this sinful world, but it did not feel “well with my soul”. I already missed her so much!!! My husband told me that those are normal emotions and that God can handle all of our feelings and questions.
In the past month or so, Mercy Me has come out with another song called “Make it Well”, sort of like a sequel to “Even If” that has been a great comfort to me. This song spoke to me and answered the question that was almost plaguing me. I knew that my circumstances and huge loss of my Mom should be well with my soul, but I hadn’t emotionally gotten there yet. The song “Make it Well” confirmed that it was okay to feel the way I was feeling. I encourage anyone reading this to listen or at least read the lyrics to this song, but some of them are:

Jesus, could you please
Just sit and cry with me ‘til I can sing
‘Til I can sing
It is well with my soul

God knows what we are feeling at all time! He is sitting right there with us through all of our emotions, questions, and fears. We are never alone when we trust in Him!
Our orchestra at church played the hymn “It is Well With My Soul” on Sunday. Slowly, I am getting closer to the deep loss of my Mom being well with my soul, although I am still not totally there yet. I know that she is living the eternal life that all Believers long for and that gives me immense peace.
It is those who are left on this earth after our losses, that have such heartache. The loss of my Mom has literally rocked my world and almost left me in a daze at times, but I am feeing more peace as time goes on. It is only with God’s help that I have this peace. I know that I will see my Mom again in Glory! I can’t wait!
God has more for me to do while I am still here on earth, so I rely on God’s help every single day! I literally can not fathom how people go through this life without Him.
If you do not know Christ as your personal Savior I urge you to find a Bible believing Church. Get to know Christ on a deeper level each day! Ask Him to come into your life and make your life all about Him! He will be your biggest helper, encourager, and give you so much hope!

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
-It is Well With My Soul (1873)

Written by Kathryn Conrad